so on Thursday she called and we got into some subject that brought me to ask her out.  She made it very clear to me that she was happily married and declined my invitation.  But.  But.  She also told me that after 5 years of marriage they fight all of the time.  I know she is not happy because it is written all over her face now.  I was not married for long so I have no experience in that matter but I always heard that after 5 years things are supposed to get better.  They are buying a house that they are supposed to be moving into in about three weeks.  I think things will change for them intially after the move but in the end they will get back to fighting again.

I say all of this because I still like her.  I know she is married and I should not have asked her out but the opportunity presented itself and I just had to ask.  Lessons of life has taught me to seize the opportunity when it exists.  Would I have wanted some guy asking my wife out if I were her husband?  No.   But I am not and would like to be.  I think she would be happier with me.  I do know that the reason they got married was because she got pregnant.  I believe that one day will come that her marriage with him will end and it will do so for a number of reasons. As long as I am not one of those reasons I would give anything to be with her.

Yesterday at lunch she sat down beside me.  It was the only place open but she could have moved to some place else should she had wanted to.  I place no merit in that.  While she was sitting there I noticed the small of her back bare.  I had to turn away remembering that lust is a sin.  But being a guy with no sex in forever I had to catch another glimpse.  Wow it is amazing how the light sparkles off of the color of her hair.  I wish I knew what ticket I could offer her to be with me.  I am contradicing myself, I know.  But wow I like her.

Anywaze, I know I need to think about other things than her.  So next week will be a good thing because my lunch will be the 1:00 thing so seeing her will not be an opportunity. 

Are there any companies out there looking for a credit manager?  I am experienced and ready to come aboard!  Job change is good!